I was excitable today in Asda buying groceries.

Smile like you used to.

Don't make too many drastic decisions, like paining the wall.
Too much could look like mania.

You might benefit from being on Ritali
you try to do/think too many things at once.

Going dark means going off grid.

Maybe i am a bit wicked.

I'm meeting up with Olivia on Monday at the Black Boy pub
I've forgotten 'how to be' around her.

I'm proud of myself doing the painting in your lounge.

Get some viagra from Boots.

You think too much into things.

Today has been good. I went to watch FastX in printworks manchester.
Very hot and sweaty weather, i had thick black clothes on. Wrong outfit for the occasion.

GEt ideas.

Use now as a dress rehersal for tomorrow. You have 18 hours to prepare!!!

Could connect my mind to a computer so i can download my thoughts faster onto Notepad.

phone call with dad mentioned said topics.
Connect
Wireless
Network
Power on 
Green
Blue car
play a game.
what you sayin
bougt game now
trying to connect.
what can you see
it says here. show me a list of avaialable networks.
Conitue to solve the problem
no rush x2
I try to diagnose the problem with my dad over the phone.
Cannt connect to internet issue.


Double Speak.

IT Shaun take your hat off.
Boyfriend Shaun put your hat on.

Am i more productive in the morning, afternoon, or night?
Get up at 12 (noon) tomorrow for the pub. STick with what you know (waking times)
I need to know to wake up at the correct time tomorrow to meet girlfriend in the pub.
Do i eat breakfast, get up earily? or do i wake up near to meeting time (1pm)

Your have to be the EGO tOMORROW IN PUB. 

A memory:
fuck your memory.

Im still learning.
With your brain you always need to keep your faculties about you.
Your inherent mental and physical power.

WHY are you telling intimite details to kelvin about sex with olivia
its none of his buisness. You are not mister cool because you talk about sex.
Don't start bragging to him.

Josh confronted me about 'why am i all up Tonys arse' the confrontation scared me.
It was unexpected and startling.
I had the impression he was going to fight me. and i wasn't ready for that.
I was on my way to the corner shop for cigerettes and i bough 6 cans of jack n coke.

I bought Tony 4 bottles of Budweiser today whilst i was at Asda.
and 3 bottles of PRIME, one to take to John on bloods day.

Ask Dr Blatner about giving me a codeine perscription for a cough.
I rang Plasden Court today for information about it and spoke to Shannon.
Also ask about ADHA also sleep clinic, as they have been in touch via letter.



soy
flax seed
mint
licorice
alcahol
processed foods
saturated fat oils
high sugar



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lyrics - the gamble

i need to let people see the real me
take the blinkers off and simply be
i need to open up the security doors
let people in and build some repors

everybody wants to meet someone
be receptive of that and you'll find you belong
have the confidence its all you need
ask some questions and act intrigued

one thing will surely lead to another
but to reach out first is the journey to discover
take thing slow from the begginging
you'll soon connect and your heart wil be singing

things will get easier over time
as we connect and our frequencys in-twine
feed off each anothers energy, mentally, readily
my love could last endlessly indefinatly






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preferbily a senior cat that is comfortable and depenant that is of a relaxed and calm 
personality
 
thank you please be in touch if any cat becomes available that would suit my needs, 
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your not getting your way this time
im sick of hearing you compalikn sick of hearing you whine


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